The Day Where Everything Piled Up

Hey there,

So, this start of the week has been interesting. I have so many things going on, I don't know if I'm able to balance it all. Now, I know I need Jesus to help me, but I'll get back to that later.

Here is what I have going for me this week:

• Written permit test (finally...)
• Memorize a Shakespearan monologue by Wed.
• Take two AP Macroeconomics quizzes online by Wed.
• Finish my Pre-Calculus homework
• Finish my AP Chemistry homework
• Get something for my mom's birthday on Friday
• Learn songs for the play (first performance next week)
• Obtain 5 blank CDs for my friend
• Fill out a scholarship thing
• Fill out a DMV form by Thursday
• Study for my Scoutmaster Conference (should've done that a while ago...)
• And probably more that I can't think of...

So, I have a lot, I suppose. I mean, not ALL of these NEED to be done by this week (like two of them), but they are long overdue. The worst part of this is that for some reason, I feel sad. I don't know exactly why. I just hate this feeling.

One thing I have completely FAILED on was to spend time with God everyday. It was one of my New Year resolutions. I was reading the One Year Bible, but unfortunately, I missed a few days. I didn't even like read anything or have a private prayer time or anything...

So, I guess life is just taking a left turn right now (there's one other major thing going on that involves my living situation). I mean, now that I am actually typing this all out, it really doesn't seem that bad (my life, that is). What am I complaining for when there's someone so much less fortunate than I am. At least I have a place to live...

Well, like I said earlier, I need Jesus. I need to start spending time with Him on a daily basis again. I need to quit being so dang selfish and so darn prideful and just take action and follow His commands. Isn't it the worst when you know you're totally wrong and you know that you need to change, but then, you don't really do anything about it? That's kind of what our weekly chapel (since I go to a Christian school) was like this morning.

I do have dreams that I want to see happen, but they won't happen unless I do something about it. Unfortunately, some of my "dreams" or desires aren't always what God wants for me. Some may even be sinful. So, what do I do about it? I guess the first step is to pray.

Well, once again, procrastination has gotten in the way. It's time to push it out of the way and get to work.

-Jeff (Jujii8)